Sweet mama,
Romans 8:28 says, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose." I believe that sometimes that good is worked out as we share our stories of pain to bring encouragement to others and strengthen their faith.
My first pregnancy ended with a miscarriage at 11 weeks. I was devastated. When I found out I was pregnant again a few months later, I was overcome with fear and anxiety that I would miscarry again. I didn't want to tell anyone until after the first trimester. But then I wrestled with guilt because I felt like if I didn't tell anyone, it meant that I didn't have enough faith. It was a really emotional time.
It is sometimes hard to balance all of the feelings and questions we have. Happiness mixed with fear. Hope mixed with faith, add in a little doubt and then guilt. If I just pray hard enough...
It is hard to understand God's ways. To know that no matter how hard we pray and hope, we have to trust that He is sovereign in all things.
During my second pregnancy, the Father taught me to let go of the things that I could not control (life and death), and to focus on what I could control...my mind. I searched the Bible for every verse that I could find on worry, anxiety, and our thoughts. I typed them out and read them multiple times a day.
I actively practiced taking captive every thought that was not in alignment with the Word of God. (2 Corinthians 10:5)
One of my favorite verses was Romans 8:6...
"The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace;"
Right now the enemy wants your mind to focus on death and fear of death, but I encourage you to let your mind be controlled by the Spirit of God, so that your focus will be on LIFE for your new little one and PEACE for your heart and mind.
Every time the enemy sends a negative thought your way, you can come back at it with the Word of God.
I can't tell you that everything is going to be okay, because no one knows what the future holds except our heavenly Father. But I will tell you that He loves you and your baby, and He wants you to walk in peace and joy today.
I don't know you, but I feel love for you in my heart as your sister in Christ. I want you to know that I am praying for peace and joy for you and for the Father's hand of protection in and around your womb as you grow and nourish this precious new life.
Always,
Amanda
(Click here to download my list of scriptures on Worry, Anxiety and the Mind.)
